Monday, September 14, 2009
i've always prided myself on being able to entertain myself. i like my own company and am rarely bored. there's always something interesting to do or read at my house. although i love my hubbie dearly it is always a nice break when he's gone for the evening. but, this week finds me completely alone for the first time in over 16 years. bill left friday morning to fly to nova scotia on business. the trip to the vet and the heartbreaking decision to say goodbye to presley saturday morning were done alone. the drive to indiana and digging his grave were done alone. i've been strong and hung in there fairly well. but i've learned that it is not fun to be alone. after 16 1/2 years of having presley at my side constantly and then the year of helping him get around and eat, i feel very lost. coming into the house today and not having him here waiting for me was almost surreal. i keep thinking that i've forgotten to do something and catch myself "checking in" on him as i did constantly for months. i humbly vow that i won't ever wish for a few minutes alone again. i've learned that alone is a most lonely word.
heartfelt thanks to each of you who left sweet words of comfort on my last post. they meant the world to me.
tomorrow will bring a cheerful post full of hope and music. "the best way to cheer yourself is to try to cheer someone else up." --mark twain--
Posted by julie king at 8:09 PM