Friday, September 25, 2009
driving home from work this evening i was thinking about how life is one long line of choices. there are everyday little choices. cereal or toast? sweater or jacket? scenic route or fast route? our mind asks and answers these questions in rapid-fire succession all day long. for the most part, we're not even conscious of of the multitude of seemingly insignificant choices we make.
then there are the harder choices that require more thought and always a sacrifice of some sort. read a book or take a walk? watch grey's anatomy or start a new art project? snap some photos or take a nap? maybe i'm still feeling the press of time that i talked about here. lately i don't want to choose between these options . . . i want to do them all.
some choices require a long term commitment so soul searching. should we get a new dog or try to live happily without a pet for awhile? should we get a puppy or an older dog? should we get a dog now or wait until spring? i'm lonely without presley and i miss him terribly but there is also a feeling of a burden lifted. the worries and the knowing that i would have to decide to let him go weighed heavily on my heart for months. i'm just not sure what to do with all this bottled-up love i need to give away.
for years now, i've offered up the advice "it's all about the choices" in life. no matter what life throws at us we have a choice about how we receive or reflect the garbage. we can choose to let our anger, frustration, grief or jealousy eat away at us or we can choose to let those emotions fuel positive changes in our lives or the lives of others. it's really just a way to look at life and feel empowered to steer our own course when we feel like a boat tossed in the swells.
if you think for a second that i'm writing this because i've excelled at making smart choices in my life, think again. like every human, i've made good choices that have carried me far and other not so good ones that i've lived to regret. but i own those choices; they are mine alone. and that i can live with!
Posted by julie king at 6:37 PM