one of the things i've always liked about fall is that it is a time of change. childhood septembers brought new shoes, new clothes and new school supplies. a return to college in the fall reunited me with friends and presented new academic challenges. both of my children were born in the fall, the very best kind of change ever. and, of course, there's the most beautiful changing of seasons here in the midwest.
during my career i've always delighted in changes at work which are often accompanied by new responsibilities, new office space and of course new office supplies. the company i work for is under new ownership with a new ceo. changes are under way. two consultants are interviewing our entire marketing staff (myself included) to determine what is working and what is not. it's a bit like having a role in the "office space" movie where they bring in 2 consultants (aka the bobs since they are both named bob) to decide who will be kept and who will be let go. in other words, it's all rather surreal.
although i'm a bit worried like all my co-workers are, i find a bit of peacefulness deep inside me. the decision is out of my hands. there's nothing else i can do but wait and see. i lost a job i adored in april 2008, survived it and moved on with my life. if it's the worst thing that ever happens to me, then i truly am blessed.
one of the many things i love about my life as a 50-something woman is the fact that i no longer tie my overall sense of self or accomplishment to my day job. i am a hard-working, dependable employee who does her best. but the job does not even come close to defining who i am as a person. and i like that feeling of being so much more!! it is liberating!
so bring on the changes! i will embrace them and then at the end of each day i will embrace the more of me -- the playful poet, the creative sojourner, the hopeful artist -- the real me.